I wish thee also to hear, my dearest daughter from my own
mouth, what were my sentiments when in mortal life I was about to receive
holy Communion. In order that thou mayest better understand what I say, reflect
on all I have commanded thee to write about my gifts, merits and labors in life.
I was preserved from original sin and, at the instant of my Conception, received
the knowledge and vision of the Divinity, as thou hast often recorded. I knew
more than all saints; I surpassed the highest seraphim in love; I never
committed any fault; I constantly practiced all the virtues in a heroic degree
and in the least of them I was greater than all the saints in their highest
perfection; the intention and object of my actions were most exalted and my
habits and gifts were noble without measure; I imitated my most holy Son most
closely; I labored faithfully; I suffered with eagerness and co-operated with
the doings of the Lord exactly as was becoming to me; I ceased not to exercise
my love and gain new supereminent merits of grace.
Yet I thought myself to have
been fully repaid by being allowed to receive Him even once in the holy
Eucharist; yea, I did not consider myself worthy of this one favor.
Reflect then
what should be thy sentiments, and those of the rest of the children of Adam, on
being admitted to the reception of this admirable Sacrament.
And if for the
greatest of saints one holy Communion is a superabundant reward, what must the
priests and the faithful think, when they are allowed to receive it so
frequently?
Open thy eyes in the deep darkness and blindness which overwhelm men
around thee, and raise them up to the divine brightness in order to understand
these mysteries.
Look upon all thy works as insufficient, all thy sufferings as
most insignificant, all thy thanksgiving as falling far short of what thou owest
for such an exquisite blessing as that of possessing in the holy Church, Christ
my divine Son, present in the holy Sacrament in order to enrich all the
faithful.
If thou hast not wherewith to show thy thanks for this and the other
blessings which thou receivest, at least humiliate thyself to the dust and
remain prostrate upon it; confess thyself unworthy in all the sincerity of thy
heart. Magnify the Most High, bless and praise Him, preserving thyself at all
times worthy to receive Him and to suffer many martyrdoms in return for such a
favor.
~ Virgin Mother of God to Venerable Mary of Agreda, from City of God ~